Why

I think this is the first time i write blog by using English, this is because the company that i'm working now is not be able to type mandarin... so no choice...=.=

Suddenly, i having a question in my mine...... "did i really enjoy in this job?"
"i don't know..."

Today is the third day that i work, yesterday i have start to pick up phone and response to caller. The first time, my nervous cause me transfer phone to other staff without asking his name.... the first mistake.....

Yesterday, i had serve a first interviewee, i forgot to give him the test paper that should be done by him..... the second ble mistake.....

actually i had done many mistake, but since that not really seriously, so it is ok.
but for myself, i feel not really accept my own performance....

i miss to laugh...... i din laugh actually since this 3 days...
7am wake up, prepare everything, 8am start my journey to work...
8.25am, i reach my office, there is not yet people come except the person who responsible to open the door.

i sit at my place, face to the computer.......
then do nothing.....

ya, not meant that is very free for this job, and not really busy for this job too....
but but but but but but..... i dunno how describe...
that is i feel that is not enjoy.... and... tied.....
i don't like to face computer....
i don't like to work at formal place...
i don't like to work like a robot....
i don't like all about this...

i hate myself like this....
don't know what im actually want...
that i want i don't have ability to have it...

i hate my worst and poor type of health....
i hate my worst headache... always disturb my concentration... affect my mood....

it is difficult to be happy....?
i just want to happy... smile.... from my own feeling...
enjoy the job i like....
enjoy the job that can let me use my perfect knowledge....

why a clever... perfect people must be the top student, that should be work in office.. do some paper work... wear formal formal...
why?
ya! im not the one of the person! i can't do it as well!
............
please.... i really confuse on my mine...
since im child until now....
i even haven't done anything that i would like to do actually.....

i would like to take course in mass com.... since after form 5....
but.... the cost fees is very high....
but... parent did't support me....

i want to be a DJ or Host....
but... parent worry about my healthy... because DJ will always be busy... and maybe will work whole day...
so i agree to be a host, as i like it too...
but now... i still don't have the ability to take the course...

for now... i don't know what i want actually....
HEADACHE NOW!!!!!!!!!!

still leave 10min to leave office...
like ten years to be pass...

第一次

很紧张，也很兴奋。

本来约好大家到我家集合，然后乘我的车一起出去，结果前天老爸的车开始闹脾气，

引机的开几次才成功，所以没办法，我没用勇气冒险，要是途中突然开不了咋办？

所以后来决定了，麻烦秀载我去，到最后又变caroline载我。。

两点半左右，我们三个先到了，阿秀最后到，因为不懂路，哈哈哈啊哈哈。。。

弄了半个小时才到。。doi~~~

等了一小时多才轮到我们，因为有一位女人插队，实在可恶！一来就马上进去，他xxxxxx,

这是第一次去看塔罗卡，先生是泰国人，但福建话还是一流，华语也不错。

其实我们四个的结果有些一样，但缘就不一样，哈哈。。。唔。。这不便说明。^^

整整花了不到十五分钟，4.15pm左右离开了那儿，就赶紧赶到one stop,因为本来约好4pm间的铨在那里等着了，真糟糕！对他真得很抱歉。

跟了他的车，到了teluk pahang的海边，已经4.45pm了。

海边很热，很多人，又刚好涨潮，垃圾又多，大家互望了阵子，找了地方。

第一次，拍这种照片，紧张，是我当时唯一的心情。

因为第一次，根本不懂该从哪儿拍起，摆什么姿态，在哪个角度，现什么表情。

再加一个，他们还不是很熟。

哈哈，这应该也是个重点。

5.15pm，我们换了个地点，水坝。^^

那里虽然没什么背景，但是，我很喜欢那里，直来直往的车子，一望无际的直路，我们拍了满多张，也很满意，但，真得很热~~~~~~~~~><

过了不久，我们又换了个地点，但我不知道那里是哪儿。

很享受，很享受整个过程，虽然很累，很热，很俄。。。。

值得。^^

很开心，很谢谢家铨，愿意拨出时间，帮我们三个很莫里摸索的女生拍照，哈哈哈哈

辛苦他了。